Reading was my only solace growing up. I could escape the way my world was falling apart by entering into a new one. I seemed to be drawn to tragedies and mythical worlds, so long as the characters were engulfed in situations that were worse than my own, I knew I would be okay.

I began to write my own stories, except these accounts were all non-fiction. A creative outlet for all the pain I was enduring. During my teenaged years I started a collection of diaries and titled them ‘Fundamentally Fucked’. I believed that to be what I was and all I could ever be. I don’t believe this about myself anymore, but it’s taken almost my whole life to get to this point. I have decided to name this website Fundamentally Fucked to pay tribute to the roots of my writing.

I have been in therapy on and off for the past decade and in 2023 I had a brain scan. During my appointment to discuss the findings, I was told my brain was “on fire”, that I was living in a state of fight or flight and that it appeared I had been for quite some time. Writing started as a way for me escape, then to cope and eventually it began to heal my wounds. In creating this site, I made a home for my thoughts. It may be too intimate or uncomfortable to read for some but to those it speaks to, I hope you find some healing through reading the parts of myself I have chosen to share. To feel less alone and know that there is always a way out. A way up.